Broadcaster’s Poem, Alden Nowlan Poems,One of the best-known and most popular Canadian poet, novelist and journalists, Alden Nowlan would overcome great adversity to garner acclaim for his work, such as the Governor General’s Award and a Guggenheim Fellowship.
Broadcaster’s Poem by Alden Nowlan
Broadcaster’s Poem
I used to broadcast at night
alone in a radio station
but I was never good at it
partly because my voice wasn’t right
but mostly because my peculiar
metaphysical stupidity
made it impossible
for me to keep believing
their was somebody listening
when it seemd I was talking
only to myuself in a room no bigger
than an ordinary bathroom
I could believe it for a while
and then I’d get somewhat
the same feeling as when you
start to suspect you’re the victim
of a practical joke
So one part of me
was afraid another part
might blurt out something
about myself so terrible
that even I had never until
that moment suspected itThis was like the fear
of bridges and other
high places: Will I take off my glasses
and throw them
into the water, although I’m
half blind without them?
Will I sneak up behind
myself and push?Another thing:
As a reporter
I covered an accident in which a train
ran into a car, killing
three young men, one of whom
was beheaded. The bodies looked
boneless, as such bodies do
More like mounds of rags
and inside the wreckage
where nobody could get at it
the car radio
was still playingI thought about places
the disc jockey’s voice goes
and the things that happen there
and of how impossible it would be for him
to continue if he really knew.
